I was chatting with a friend yesterday when she pointed out something to me.  Something so totally incredulous that I practically laughed my head off at its mere suggestion.

HUWAATT?!!!! Are you kidding me?!!!? As in trulili, sister??? (sorry, umandar na naman po ang pagkababaeng bakla ko, but I digress...)

Anyway, ganoon na ba talaga ko kadense? As in he (Guy No.1) was making da moves na pala to me and I never, as in ever, had a clue. Kaya pala my prof was teasing us na and a classmate was saying to me that he looks like (insert name of a local celeb here). Ako naman wala talaga...kahit ilang biro pa, wala lang patay malisya kasi I saw no malice naman talaga (I mean, in the way he treated me and the way he was so attentive to my needs, the way he was making small talk) coz all the boys in school naman were all gentlemanly, kind and friendly, especially towards me. (now don't get any ideas, I am not a flirt, it's just that I get along well with everybody, including girls... and boys and teachers do give me special attention because of my condition).  You know, they just go the extra mile to make me feel comfortable which I truly appreciate. Pero, kasi ayoko mag-assume kasi ako yung girl, di ba? nakakahiya naman mag-assume tapos idedeny ka (Showbiz ko talaga! hehehe, feeling artista daw o!)

Pero, cguro kaya hindi ko napansin kasi I was so fixated on this other guy (Guy No.2) who i had huge crush on na hindi naman pwedeng maging "kami" ever.  Akala ko wala lang yon kasi he's (referring to Guy No. 1) nice naman to everyone and since I've known him for quite a while, I know that he always goes the extra mile to make everyone feel comfortable kasi nga he's super nice (as in walang halong biro ha, at walang malisya). Sayang, di ko kasi alam coz I'm a greenhorn in these kinds of things (i.e. Founding Chairperson po ako ng NBSB aka No Boyfriend Since Birth Association, hahaha) and you are talking to a person who actually ran away from a potential suitor after receiving a rather lengthy straight to the point love letter in college, as in literal, ha, truly, sister, I am that pathetic!)

Well, sayang,  to tell you the truth, i would have give him a chance because I kinda liked him back in an absurd brotherly kind of way, and who knows that might develop into something more coz I'm definitely not closing my doors. Wish ko lang, I should have gotten a clue and given him more encouragement (besides academics I tell you, I am pretty dumb in the love department).  Haha, e di sana di na ko founding chairman ng NBSB chairman emeritus na lang!  (retired na...)